The past is just practice...

i want to show you everything...

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

i never use that lamp anymore...


To be completely honest...I never turn it on unless you're here...

and today was the first day in a while, It's nice having you around...

I'm ready for things to be better...I'm ready for us to be happy...

I can't deny it...You're my favorite...

We'll fix this...



If you'll be my star
I'll be your sky
I live to let you shine...

Monday, January 7, 2008

Honesty and forgiveness…neither of us have held up our end of the deal



I must confess, I don't understand anything, at all, anymore. Everything from my past that I said I would never let happen again, I'm letting happen =/ I can't help it. I just know all the hurt I've ever been through has a purpose, and one day I'll be happy with where I am in life, when it comes to my relationships. I know that he is worth it, and I just have to hope for the best...Love is hard, and after all this time I still have no comprehension of it...

"A change in breathing,
a time to reflect,
ashes and regrets"

I just wish I felt more comfortable in my own skin...That I was good enough for someone...

I want to be pretty
I want to be skinny
I want to be smart
I want to be better....Than I am...
I want to be perfect...for you...
I want to be everything I'm not...because what I am now, Isn't good enough for anyone...especially me....


Also I am at a fork in the road. I don't know what I want to do with my life...


Air Force?

Cook?

Business?

Musician?

Teacher?

I want to make a difference...


I was born for greater things....College isn't for me...

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Whoever said romance was over...Roll over....



I decided to create a blog, outside of the myspace world, mainly for the reason that not everyone will be reading this unlike myspace and Paige can keep tabs on my life =P like I keep tabs on hers through her blog...even though her writings are quite difficult to figure out sometimes. Well we will have to see if she can figure out mine! There will be more to come, enjoy! =]




I know...and You know...

It's always better when you

find out we've been lying...

...cheating....

baby

give me a sign

give me a reason

make up your mind

darling

only a fool

couldn't see through us

know what we do....